wish i would have given a little more.

So today I went into the gym for my workout feeling pretty good and excited to be there. I really enjoy my workouts at CrossFit and I am especially anxious to get better at my lifting. I've been watching a lot of videos lately on olympic lifting, so when I get ready to actually do one in the gym, I can see in my head what it is supposed to look like. I only wish my body knew what the heck it was doing. Today, I picked up the bar to do a snatch and proceeded to lose my balance and fall on my butt. Very cool. However, not my first time and probably not my last.

Anyway, onto the workout. I am starting to think my coach, Steve, knows my capabilities more than I do. Maybe this isn't a surprise? I mean, he is the best (Steve, I hope you read that :) I frequently think that I can do more than what he plans for me, however when the workout gets going, I quickly realize how dumb I was for asking "that's it? are you sure?", and I'm thankful that he laughs and doesn't give me a taste of my own medicine. On the other hand, he often knows I am capable of more than what I think (as I tend to be a tad hard on myself), which I am also thankful for.

So... my workout today consisted of 2 minutes of cleans with an awkward 40lb sandbag followed by 10 snatches ... 3 times with rest, then 2 minutes of double unders followed by 10 back squats...3 times with rest. For whatever reason, I am kind of frustrated about my performance. Though I felt ready, I don't think I really was ready... I didn't feel like I was pushing myself as hard as I could have and so now I feel kind of lame. It was definitely really hard and I got pretty darn sweaty doing it, but I guess I just don't feel like it was good enough... like my mind wasn't in it or something. Part of me thinks it was my lack of technique and confidence with the snatch that slowed me down, not to mention, I can't quite string my double unders together, so they were always interrupted and slow. Even still, I couldn't make myself go any faster on my cleans or back squats... I just couldn't motivate myself to move today. Frustrating.

That's all really. I guess I just needed to write it out. Back at it tomorrow.

p.s. Jeff got a ring muscle up today! what a stud.

photo: me... not getting my f-ing elbows up & Steve, bearing brunt of it.